Friday, October 3, 2008
Things at Home.
I thought for my second post that I would comment on things within my household. I have been with my wife for 12 years. We have lived together for 9 and been married for 5. I love my wife dearly and wouldn't want to be with anyone else. About 5 years ago she was diagnosed with Hypertrophic Cardiomyopathy and Kidney Disease. Things have been getting worse for her lately and I just don't know what to do to make it better. I worry that things may progress faster that thought and we will end up in a uncontrollable situation the she may not come out of. On top of that things have been getting worse for us financially. Between her health and our money I am stressed to the max. All of these things add up to things not being perfect at home. Most of the time she doesn't feel good, and when she does we are to broke to go do much. Resulting in us sitting at home watching a lot of TV and creating a lot of boredom induced frustration. The situation has also caused things to just not seem the same between us, it seems as though we just go through the motions some days. I know she still loves me as much as I do her, but it just seems as though we are so wrapped up in everyday life that we forget about each other. The biggest issue that I can control, to a point, in our home is money. It just seems that I can never make enough. I try and work overtime and then they stop overtime. Tracy works overtime most weeks but it just isnt enough, plus it is hard on her and she doesn't need to do it. I could use a second job, but don't know where I would find the time or energy to do it. I try not to let her in on everything that goes on because she doesn't need the extra stress. Part of why I am blogging is because I need an outlet and I don't want her to worry about things. Hopefully things will come around here soon because I personally don't think I can handle much more. Am sure things will work out in the end, they always do, but am tired of taking one step forward only to have to take two steps back. Apologize if this "vent" doesn't make since, but it's what's on my mind.
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oh it makes sense bud, something u could always try is have friends over, i know there are a few of us at work would more then willingly come over and hang, even if its just to bullshit, play a boardgame, watch tv, watch a movie whatever. there is plenty that could be done for free but most people dont think about them. little things help a ton trust me, im broke more often then not and know free things to do to get by.
Appreciate the sentiment and thought, but living in Ames I would hate to make people drive. Cant afford to have her come down as well. Might have to think of something though. Get a small party going sometime. We do plenty of free, problem is it is mostly with mr sister-in0law and her fiance. Both good people to hang with, but just part of the same old, same old
well to make a fellow co-worker/friend have fun im willing to make the drive, especially since im on my bike and get good gas mileage, im sure rusticles would follow since he is always up for a nice ride and that would allow his nuts to recoup, maybe on a sunday since we all have that day off. im sure we could work something out
A Sunday would work, could all hang out and watch football or something. Will have to see whats up and maybe I will have you guys over. Not really concerned about Rusty's nuts though, is his issue there.
this is very true but its no fun to hear him complain that his nuts hurt from sitting on that narrow ass tank of his. yeah talk to the wifey see what she thinks of it, if you got a grill i know nusticles er... rusticles and i love to cook on the bbq and im even willing to pick up some nice steaks to roll out with and cook. just holla, if you want me celly device number stand up and let me know
Woot.. I can go for weekly bbq and card/game night.
I will let you guys no what the wifey says, am busy this Sunday with family stuff, but maybe next Sunday
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